Sometimes it takes looking back at who you were by reading notes you wrote or posts from early days to make you feel. It seems i haven't felt in a while. Looking at these things that i wrote that my friends wrote, really pains me. Because i haven't talked with them in months... maybe even a year. It's just hard to make my self care enough to talk with them, because they don't live near me... It's sad and painful, and I hurt because of it.

Happiness is a hard thing to find. They say that if you love someone you should let them go for them to be happy. But what if you want to make them happy by being with them and being happy with them. What then? Is it possible? It's hard loving someone and not being able to make them happy by sharing your love.

Ahahhaha what a horrible habit i have of always getting onto the topic of love. But like jack johnson said, "love is the answer at least to most of the questions of my heart."